Pity Party for One

I have been feeling VERY sorry for myself over the last few weeks and this pity party really needs to come to an end!  I need to stop blaming everyone for things going wrong in my life and take responsibility  for it all.  I allowed these things to happen so can’t really pass on the blame.

Today, I had some words with myself and decided to take ownership of my happiness and my life…  watching my thoughts and how I speak about and deal with situations, especially here at work 🙂

Feeling much more positive and looking forward to everything working out.

Sending lots of love and light to ALL ❤

 

Bring on the CURLS!!

Why did it take me all these years to become a #naturalista? It has been thee best decision I ever made! Check out the #shrinkage tho😳 this journey has been tough, there have been several times I “almost” gave up and bought a box of #relaxer, because I just couldn’t handle the #fro or the #curls but now I’m like #curlyhairdontcare 💁🏾 @the_fitness_regiment will be cutting my hair for me today 💇🏾 I will miss the length, but cannot wait to rock me curly mop!  

Losing weight because…

I hate feeling heavy and struggling to do active things
I hate feeling unattractive
Not being able to wear the types of clothes I like
Not feeling confident
Nervous to meet new people in case they judge me for my size
Legs rubbing when it’s hot and I’m wearing a dress/skirt
Feeling self-conscious in swimsuit on holiday, not being able to wear a bikini
Having to say no to invites to do something active, in case I’m not fit enough and embarrass myself
Not being able to run or swim as fast or as far as I used to. 

Feeling low on energy, tired and lethargic

A&E with my 6yr old!

A&E with my 6yr old!

on my way to work this morning I got a call from my sons school saying he’s been hurt, he hit his head on something, cut his eye open and that I needed to come to the school and take him to A&E.

I thought they were making a big fuss about nothing, anyhoo, I did a U-Turn and made my way to the school. When I got there he was just sat there looking very sorry for himself (poor thing) and his eye did look bad but I didn’t think it needed stitches.  I took him to A&E, just in case.  We were seen relatively quickly and HE DID NEED STITCHES! 2 of them – I felt so bad 😩😩 he’s absolutely fine now, thank goodness!

The Beginning…

Ok, so for the last 15 years or so I have been fighting a battle. A battle I have lost a more times than I’ve won… The battle is called “Losing weight”. Today, Sunday the 7th of Feb 2016, I shall go to the gym and begin the challenge, the fight to shed 50lbs by end of June 2016!

➡️Starting weight 198lbs
🎯Target weight 148lbs

#letsdothis